O_O

Well, nothing much happened today. I mean, I spent the whole day in front of the laptop and playing internet games.

Around noon, my aunt called asking could she borrow our internet to fill my cousin's form. Not long after they came, Daddy also arrived with Uncle.

Uncle gonna spend the night with us.

King Of Fruits

Today

I ate durian with Mommy just now ^^

At night, I went to my cousin's wedding. On the way to the venue, Daddy and I got lost XD Fortunately, we made it in time :D It was a special night for both Daddy and I because we got to meet our Singaporean relatives.

Overall, the wedding was kinda fun but the food was average though... :/

28th of December

Yesterday I didn't do anything in particular. Just surfing/browsing the net the whole day and play some online game.

In the evening, I went grocery shopping with Daddy at Stutong.

Airport

Today is the day that Sis goes back to Kuala Lumpur. Mommy woke up early to prepare breakfast.

Me on the other hand woke up late since last night I surfed the net till midnight :P After breakfast, all of us dressed up to get ready to send to the Airport.

There were a lot of people at the Airport. We saw Sis went to the the departure terminal and waved her goodbye before going back home.

At home, Mommy and I had durian for lunch :D After that, Mommy and I felt durian nausea XD

4 Days At Kampung

26th of December

Its the day we went back to Kuching. I was super excited to go back home. After lunch, my aunt sent us :)

Upon arriving, we saw Daddy's car in the car porch *strange* I thought Daddy was still at Bau. Anyway, I unpacked my bag and straight to the internet.

At night after dinner, my parents, Sis and I went shopping at Boulevard. When we got home, Sis started packing her stuff as she will going back to Kuala Lumpur.

25th of December

Its Christmas but it didn't felt like one as boredom struck in. By this time I was longing for the internet. Daddy on the other hand, went to his kampung at Bau.

At noon, Mommy, cousin and I along with yet another aunt went out. We accompanied my aunt to buy some groceries then went to her new house. After that, we went to a neighbouring house to pay a visit.

At night, my cousins, aunt and I went went to visit the next door neighbour a.k.a relatives. After we went back, I told Mommy I'm hungry and she prepared a curry rice for me. Later she prepared some squid rojak.

24th of December

Its a very busy day. Mommy went to the durian orchard with my cousins leaving me and Sis at home.

My aunts started to do the cleaning. Sis and fellow cousins helped them while me, didn't and there're three reasons. First, its laziness obviously. Second, I don't wanna play with any dust nor do I want to mingle with the icy mountain water as the previous day I was sick. Third, I think maybe its because of the medicine I took the previous night that makes me kinda drowsy and tired for no reason.

Anyway, I did helped as my aunt forced me :/

At night there was a feast of chicken, pork and catfish :) I took some photos with my cousins too. I slept that night with a very full belly.

Daddy came in the evening.

23rd of December

I'm not really excited about going back to kampung. If I was the one driving, I would go back later. Unfortunately, Daddy wouldn't allow me to drive as Mr. Red's tyres are worn.

Mommy, Sis and I went back earlier than Daddy. We were fetched by my aunt and uncle. In their vehicle, their youngest son drove me nuts. His level of annoyance was tremendously high ><

Upon arriving, Sis and I quickly went upstairs to make our beds (its mattresses actually). My aunt scolded us by saying we should help her in the kitchen rather than doing our mattresses first. Hmph...its easy for her to say since she reserved two mattresses earlier herself >:(

I'm also down with a flu hence, I have no intention of lending others a hand. My other aunt gave me her daughter's flu pill at night and after taking it, I felt very sleepy...Zzzz.

Cancelled

Today was supposed to be my facial day but it was cancel on the last minute due to lack of communication. A friend of mine was the one who hooked me and another friend for the facial treatment.

She called on the last minute saying it was cancelled while I was already dressed up and was ready to get going :/

I got mad and scolded her T_T After a few hours, I reflected on my behavior and I think I should apologise to her. Its not her fault and everything that had happened was beyond her control.

Since the facial was cancelled, my other friend and I went to The Spring instead and I ended up buying another top.

Danger

I went to Stutong with Mommy in the morning to accompany her to buy some groceries. On our way home, a white car came dangerously close to Mr. Red which scared Mommy :S

At noon, I went there again but this time with Sis. On the way to our destination, at the roundabout to be precise, a stupid blue car honked me :( I think he honked me...or someone else. Oh well, people should be more patient towards new drivers though :/

At Stutong, we bought a pair of flip flops each.

Walnut Cracker

Its better to let go than to hold on to something thats not worth holding on...

I wanna eat durian :D

Tarts

People said that your home is the safest place to be in but to me, well...I dunno O_O

Whatever, things happened for a reason :P

Its really difficult to find a part time job with a good pay I mean :/ The vacancy is always full :(

Again ^^

I went to The Spring again but today, I went with Daddy (and Sis) ^^ It was crowded as usual and I met my former classmate.

We went there so fun (meaning we don't buy anything in particular) but did ended up buying stuff XD Sis and I bought some clothes while Daddy bought a bottle :)

European

Swedish guys are hot :)

Fun & Pain

Today

My left calf is killing me. It hurts since yesterday but today it just gone from bad to worst. I think maybe I was pushing myself too hard yesterday (I was walking non-stop).

Yesterday

My cousins, Sis and I went to The Spring after had lunch at my aunt's place. On the way to the mall, we nearly caught up in an accident (black Toyota Hilux incident #3). I was the one who was behind the wheel and after the incident, my hands were shaking. I was terrified >< Sis and cousins were scared too.

Upon arriving at the mall, we walked, bought some stuff and took a couple of pictures before going back. We then went to Stutong and had some drinks. Later, I sent my cousins and fetched Mommy and we went back home together.

New Face

I've change my blog skin :)

I'm bored of the old one and since I have so much time today, I thought of re-inventing my blog :D

I Like...

Holiday is out and its time to partay!!! :D I can do whatever I want and there's no rule or regulation to abide me anymore *evil grin*

These are some things I like at the moment :P

Lets see, nails. I want my nails to look like this :) So pretty :D

I want to do something about my hair. I wanna dye it but then again, I haven't thought about the colour or what style I wanna go for... .

Bikini. I dunno when I gonna wear them but I think I should have one ^^ Purple or orange ones just look oh so hot :D

Being thin. I'm already thin but I want to be thinner. I love those runway models' figures especially Victoria Secrets' models. I think super skinny is hawt :>

Moisturiser. I think Melilea Revitalizing Cream is not as bad as I thought before. I mean, it does moisturise my face and after a few days, I do noticed my face look smoother and fairer. The down side is that this cream is "heavy" and your face will feel very greasy upon application. It doesn't end there because the greasiness will continue for hours. I also dislike the strong floral smell. Sometimes I'm totally choked by the smell x_x This product is probably more suitable for those with dry skin. After I finish the jar, I'm gonna be adventurous and try a few products I have in mind ^^

Make ups. Hmm... I dunno why but I'm not really obsessed like I used to about make ups anymore. I think having a couple of lipsticks shades, a lip gloss, foundation and a compact powder will do the trick at the moment. I'll try to upgrade my make ups after I get over my skin care obsession :P

I like Russian names. I like the spelling and the way you pronouns it. I particularly like the name Ilya. Hopefully someday I'll meet a gorgeous Russian guy with that name XP

2 Days Ago Cum Today

Today

I wanna go out but Sis said she wanna take a rest today :/

Anyway, I miss blogging so much. Ever since STPM started, my whole world turn dark and scary. Never a day I feel carefree nor happy as I can only experienced anxiety. In my mind there will always linger thoughts of "can I score my papers?", "what if I fail a certain subject?", "did I wrote the correct answers?", "will I able to go to a university?", "will the markers understand what I've wrote?" and "what will I do if I didn't exceed my parents, teachers and my own expectation?".

I suffered a lot of emotional breakdowns during my History paper 1. Its all happened because I was careless. I didn't read the whole questions and ended up answering one of the hardest questions whereas the easiest question was just below a couple of paragraphs. I spent a week of weeping. I mean, I cried while studying for other subjects, while eating, bathing and even watching tv while eating a certain fruit which I can't recall with Mommy. Everything was so messed up. Eventually I got over it but I do admit I'm still worried about the outcome.

Sunday

Time to relax and replenish~ :>

Saturday

My parents, Sis and I went grocery shopping in the morning. Vegetables were expensive during the rainy season so Daddy and Mommy opted buying only the necessities. After the shopping, Daddy tapau Kolo Mee and we had it for breakfast at home :)

Around noon after lunch, we went strolling at E-Mart. Sis bought a towel. Me, nothing XD Daddy said its way to early to buy my university stuff yet. We met our aunt and cousin too. Its been ages since we last saw them (I mean me. I don't even recognised them... ><). After E-Mart, we went to Sunday (a.k.a Saturday) Market. Daddy went searching for crabs but couldn't find any good ones hence, ended up buying cockles instead. My Sis and I on the other hand went to an Apam Balik stall to buy what else? Apam Balik of course ^^ We couldn't find the regular size apam so we just went for the small one. After Sis placed our order, I spotted the regular Apam's stall a few yards away. I told Sis to cancel our order. Sis didn't dare so I had to tell the hawker myself. After we left, a boy (I think he's related to the hawker) jeered and make fun of me >:(

Hmph... I never buy their Apam Balik again >:(

1st Day Of Freedom

I dunno why but I don't have this free as a bird feeling even though I finished my examination yesterday. Deep down in my heart, I feel worried and anxious ><

Since the scary ordeal is over, I really need to think what I'm gonna do during the upcoming 5 long months holiday. Lets see, I'm planning to get a job :) I don't care what job it is as long as it pays me good :D

Today, Mommy, me and Sis went to my aunt's house for lunch. (actually our real intention was to fetch some unripe mangoes from her lawn). Unfortunately, it rained so we cancel our plan :(

Over The Moon~

I'm so happy right now~ ^^ Finally...after 3 weeks of sweats and tears...its over!!! :D STPM sure lives up to its name by being the most difficult examination ever :S

Bummer

I'm gonna sit for my exam tomorrow and guess what? I'm down with a fever right now...oh great wargghh!!! D: Hopefully I'm cure by tomorrow >:x

Thanks for the wishes, Fifi *xoxo*

Huaaa~

I'M SO SCARED!!!~ T_T

I know its not my first time sitting for an exam but I dunno... exams are scary... Its more nerve-wrecking than driving Mr. Red for the first time or meeting new people.

2 Days Left

I'm cranky... *sigh*

I dunno what to feel anymore. You see, I'm currently feel very very nervous, scared, worried, anxious and terrify. I know. Those words are all the same XD

Anyway, I'm really really scared... T_T

People should ban exams *hohoho*

Airport

Today my Sis will be coming back from Kuala Lumpur~ Yeah!!! ^^

Everyone was super excited especially Mommy :D Sis will be arriving around 1.45 p.m but she was already nagging me to get ready at 10 a.m. XP

At the airport, Mommy and I sat on the benches while Daddy chat with someone (no idea who we was). As we were waiting, an old man came with a flight attendant pushing him on a wheelchair. They went to the bench that we were sitting and the old man asked the attendant to put him there. As he was about to sit down, two other women came along with wheelchairs and sat together with him. Mommy was like, "oh, there're a platoon of them" :P

As soon as the attendants left, those people stood up and walked! O_O I thought they were crippled... So they were actually too lazy to walk and pretended to be cripple hence got people to push them in a wheelchair O_O I'm amazed. Cool trick... Maybe I should try it next time XD

Truthfully, I don't think those people were that old. I think they were about 40-50 years old. They should execise more. My Grandpa is almost 80 years old and he still can run and take care of his vegetables farm and orchard :)

Scary

I wish everything would be over soon... . I can't stand it any longer! XC

I just finished watching some videos in Youtube and guess what? I really adored these people. Their videos are always worth watching and also is a good stress reliever ^^

Ahoy Mates~

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...

I'm trying to restrain myself but I still can't seem to do it :<

Imagination

Imagine yourself in lets say 50 or 60 years from now. You are old, married, have children and your children also have children of their own.

Everything is pleasant except... your parents and siblings have died. You're the only one left.

How does it feel to be the only one living? Even though you have your own family now but the faces you grew up and familiar with has long gone...

I find this to be quite saddening T_T I know it would happen sooner or later and for some reasons I rather be the one to die first than watching my love ones leave me...

p/s : I got this weird imagination last night while reading my Islamic Civilization book :P

Melilea

My verdict, its not as good as I was hoping for. The moisturiser only gave my face a lot of acne and not a beautiful complexion. I used it for three days and after seeing those breakouts, I immediately stopped. I think I've been duped by the promoter. Melilea claimed it uses only organic stuff as ingredients but with some close inspections, they were putting paraben in their products. If paraben based products are used in a long time period, one can develop breast cancer. Another thing about paraben is that I just knew I have an allergic reaction to it O.o When I'm using the moisturiser, I feel like my face was burning and there were also some stinging sensation on my cheeks. I knew something was totally wrong so I checked their ingredients and there it was... paraben.

I guess Melilea skin care products aren't suitable for my skin. Hence, the search will be continued~ ^^

Rewind

A lot of strange things happened to me this year~ Some were totally nerve-wrecking but most of them were just plain stupid and was directed to me intentionally by brainless idiots.

Lets recap...

First - Senior Assistant Issue

I have a bit of misunderstanding with the Senior Assistant (but I don't regret it). She started it but she did apologise the next day but I seriously hate her so I totally ignored the forgiving stuff XD

Second - Almost Caught Up In An Accident

One word; DANGEROUS. I seriously need to be extra careful when driving ^^

Third - Road Rage

Its afternoon. Come on. Those idiots were asking to be knocked since they were walking in the middle of the road.

Forth - Robbery

I got robbed twice!!! Not one but twice!!! The kampong people are so poor and the only way they could get some fast cash is to steal. The funny thing was they even stole some buns from the neighbouring class :x I guess the Kampong Tabuan folks are poor and starving. I don't pity them though...

Over

Finally, Form 6 is over but its not done yet since STPM is just getting started *scared*

Today was touching but I'm not crying. I just feel like my burdens are getting heavier as it involve hope, dream, trust, promise, future and everything in between. A couple of teachers were putting some serious hope in me and its scary. I don't mean it in a bad way but its just that I'm worried if I can't live up to their hope and ended up disappointing them :/

It is approximately a week left and I don't feel any readiness in me *sigh~* This is totally like Form 5 :(

Hopefully I don't screw up in any papers >:)

Burst

STPM is getting nearer and nearer T_T and I can't stop but to feel some Form 5

deja-vu ><

Tomorrow I'll be attending my school Prize Giving Ceremony :) I'll be receiving two prizes and they are First-runner Up and the highest score for Business Studies.

I finally bought the Melilea moisturiser called Revitalizing Cream a couple of weeks ago and it was super expensive O.O I don't think I can afford buying the whole set since one tiny jar already cost me RM70!!!

Even though I bought it like ages ago, I haven't had the courage to open the seal yet. You see, I got quite scared when the promoter said acne gotta come bursting from my face since I didn't take their organic drink before using the cream. She said the acne will cease after a week or so depends on how much toxins I have in my body. After that, I gonna have fair and smooth complexion. Hopefully the cream live up to what she said because if it doesn't, I'm gonna throw the jar straight at her face when I see her next time >:(

...and I'll demand a refund!!!

Back!

Its so hard to resist... XD

Stop

I'm gonna stop surfing the internet for a while now :)

Until STPM is over ^^

Makeups

Its been ages since I jotted something about makeups ^^ You see, I'm not really interested in them anymore. I'm preferring natural beauty now. I mean, using makeups too soon can makes your face turn dull and ugly. There's a Malay saying that sounds like this, "pakai makeups awal gilak molah seri muka ilang". I find the words to be true. Yup, just look at the actresses and singers, they look so gorgeous with makeups but when they're not, they look plain and dull. Their "seri muka" is gone. It was stolen by the makeups.

I also believe that by practicing a healthy living, one could be more beautiful in a natural way.

During Lower Six, I was obsessed about makeups. I even wore them to school :P but everything change when pimples were popping out of my face. It took me about 2 months to recover from those breakouts. I don't wear anything on my face from there onwards especially pressed powder. I also think maybe its because of the skincare products that aren't suitable for me. I stopped everything and only continue using the cleanser.

Milo

My parents are forcing me to drink milo every weekend and I don't like it O_O Daddy is complaining about my weight and how thin I have become... I don't think I'm thin. I do eat but just not as much as everyone else XP

I've just read my previous posts for this week and I noticed I kept blabbering about 'dislike' and 'hate'. Wow~ I have a lot of hatred in me O.o Well, its not my fault. I mean, this month is a total bad luck for me. First, the stupid teacher was scolding me about crap and ended up making me cried T_T Then, Mr. Red won't start and I had to cancel my plan with a friend. I can't even go home :/ Hmm...this is very suspicious. I think maybe that no good teacher cursed me :O Maybe I should take a flower bath...lol.

STPM is getting nearer...hohoho. Scary~ :S

Need to start thinking in a positive way :)

Change

Mommy, Daddy and I went to Tabuan Jaya to go who some strolling but before that, we went to a bank because Daddy need to deposit some money. After he withdrew some cash, he noticed he didn't have any extra change so, he asked me and Mommy to go somewhere to "break" the money. We went to a pharmacy and asked the chasher if she have an extra RM10 to be exchanged and she answered, "no". Disappointed, we went back to the bank. Daddy went to the pharmacy and bought a pack of candy and guess what? The stupid lady did have some changes. May that pharmacy be bankrupt someday >:( Hence, the moral of today's lesson is buy something first before you ask for money exchange.

Death

Mr. Red died in school!!! T_T Poor Mr. Red... I'm sorry I had to leave you all by yourself in the afternoon :(

This incident really opened my eyes about friendship. I mean, it kinda makes me knew who were my true friends O.O

I would like to thank a friend that accompany me through the whole incident. She is truly a friend in need :)

The teacher who scolded me yesterday asked for my forgivess today. She let out her hand to shake my hand I don't wanna touch her's. I just look at her. I'm too disgusted to even touch her hand by now. She left and told my classmates who were coincidently searching for her that I was arrogant and strange. Hmph...whatever.

In the afternoon, Daddy came back from work and together we went to buy a jumper. It started to rain heavily too. We went to Tabuan Jaya and bought the jumper and directly went to school to revive Mr. Red.

Mr. Red was all alone in the rain :( Poor guy. Daddy went immediently to work by clamping two ends of the jumper to Mr. White and the others to Mr. Red. He started Mr. White and waited for Mr. Red to wake up. A few minutes past but Mr. Red was still unconcious T_T I went to the toilet for a while and came back to see Daddy scrapping the rust on Mr. Red's battery terminals. He clamped the two ends of the jumper again but still, nothing happen. I went to the KHB block to ask for help. There, three guys were watching tv. They followed me and together they pushed Mr. Red while Daddy manuavered from inside using gear 2. Suddenly, Mr. Red wokes up!!! :D

I drove Mr. Red while Daddy with Mr. White followed us from behind. We went back home and after changing seats, Daddy and I went to Carpenter's Street to buy a new battery. On the way back, Daddy went to the gas station to fill up Mr. Red's tank and pumped his tyres :)

Hatred

Today would probably be the worst day of my Form 6 life. I mean, I was being scolded (indirectly) about something I didn't do and it sucks T_T The story goes like this...

The whole class was being called to the Meeting Room by her *sigh*. There, we (history students) sat down while waiting for the art students to arrive. After a few minutes, the Brain Washing (I don't make this up, she named it herself) session began. She started scolding everyone and calling up names to answer her questions. I got annoyed the minute she started talking crap abut this and that. When she call out my name and asked me her retarded question, I simply answered her with 'none and dunno'. There, she started to criticise me. I was startled and thinking what did I do to deserve such hurtful criticism from an unknown person. Bit by bit, my eyes were watery and I began to burst into tears :'( A friend gave me a tissue to wipe out my tears (thanks :D)

That person was giving me some lecturing about how I should behave, study, etc like she knew me better than myself >:( She should just save that advise for her own children because I DON'T need any of them. I mean, I know how I should study or behave and I don't need a total stranger to tell me what to do.

Truthfully, I took everything she said to heart and seriously, I hate her. At the end of the session, she asked me to stay back and apologised for her criticism but its too late. I don't think I would forgive a person as evil as her...

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It sure was nerve wrecking~ :D During General Studies, the question and answer quiz began. I'm the second person to be called and I answered mine wrongly (according to Mr. Maternity :3). Therefore, I have to stand (the embarrassing part was I'm the first) XD but only a few minutes or so :) The question was very tricky. I did the same question in Malay Languages and the same answer was accepted. I don't understand why my General Studies' teacher said I was wrong. He said it straight at my face and left me speechless (...and look dumb too) O_O

A Brawl

During recess, there was a fight between my classmates. It was kinda intense as slapping, tugging, screaming and hitting were involved. I didn't dare to break them up O_O I just watched close by. A few minutes later, a couple of teachers came to stop them with the principal watching from below (my class is on the second floor). The teachers successfully stopped them (what a turn off and it was just becoming more interesting... :P). Nobody knew what caused the incident. Hmm...well, I'll get to the bottom of it tomorrow XD

I decided to become a member of Melilea :) Their products are pretty pricey but by becoming a member, I'll have some discount ^^ (even though its not much...)

My General Studies' teacher just came back from his maternity leave today XP Tomorrow gonna be a scary as he said we will start our question and answer quiz again and whoever answer wrongly will have to stand for the whole period :<

p/s : My Sis gonna come back soon :D

Monday Blues...

My classmates and I went to the Computer Lab for History and there was no internet connection :(

During Business Studies, I forgot the answers for a few questions and have to rewrite them 20 times each as correction X(

Kuih!!!

This morning I went to the market with Daddy and Mommy. There as usual, we bought our weekly grocery supplies. The most important part of the shopping is of course the kuih(s). I dunno why but I'm craving some kuih lapis. I asked Daddy to buy me some and guess what? One tiny piece cost 50 cents O.O I thought it was 30 cents... Kuih(s) are very expensive these days :/ We ended up buying 2 pieces of layered kuih(s), some curry puffs, a fried yam kuih and a couple of cinnamon kuih(s).

I've been searching high and low about moisturiser for quite some time now. I have sensitive + combination + acne prone skin which makes it very difficult to find the right moisturiser that suit me :( What I want in a moisturiser is that it hydrate my skin, makes it radiant and glowing and not to mention have some whitening properties. I wonder what brand should I be using? Here are some brands that I'm so eager to try ^^

Egyptian Magic

I read some great review about it. This cream is 100% natural and contain only 6 ingredients. There are Olive Oil, Beeswax, Honey, Pollen, Royal Jelly and Propolis Extract. Cures everything from rashes, scars, burns, cuts, scrapes, eczema, etc. It can be use as hair conditioner too. Very cool stuff :D

Melilea Intensive Nourisher

A friend introduced me to this brand. Its organic too. Its main ingredients are pure Beeswax, Olive Oil and Pearl Powder. Comes with SPF 15 to protect the skin from harmful UV rays.

Both products share something in common and that is they're pretty expensive $$ O.O I did thought about using cheaper brands but I find them to be unsuitable as most of the brands target people with dry skin only X(