Today
I wanna go out but Sis said she wanna take a rest today :/
Anyway, I miss blogging so much. Ever since STPM started, my whole world turn dark and scary. Never a day I feel carefree nor happy as I can only experienced anxiety. In my mind there will always linger thoughts of "can I score my papers?", "what if I fail a certain subject?", "did I wrote the correct answers?", "will I able to go to a university?", "will the markers understand what I've wrote?" and "what will I do if I didn't exceed my parents, teachers and my own expectation?".
I suffered a lot of emotional breakdowns during my History paper 1. Its all happened because I was careless. I didn't read the whole questions and ended up answering one of the hardest questions whereas the easiest question was just below a couple of paragraphs. I spent a week of weeping. I mean, I cried while studying for other subjects, while eating, bathing and even watching tv while eating a certain fruit which I can't recall with Mommy. Everything was so messed up. Eventually I got over it but I do admit I'm still worried about the outcome.
Sunday
Time to relax and replenish~ :>
My parents, Sis and I went grocery shopping in the morning. Vegetables were expensive during the rainy season so Daddy and Mommy opted buying only the necessities. After the shopping, Daddy tapau Kolo Mee and we had it for breakfast at home :)
Around noon after lunch, we went strolling at E-Mart. Sis bought a towel. Me, nothing XD Daddy said its way to early to buy my university stuff yet. We met our aunt and cousin too. Its been ages since we last saw them (I mean me. I don't even recognised them... ><). After E-Mart, we went to Sunday (a.k.a Saturday) Market. Daddy went searching for crabs but couldn't find any good ones hence, ended up buying cockles instead. My Sis and I on the other hand went to an Apam Balik stall to buy what else? Apam Balik of course ^^ We couldn't find the regular size apam so we just went for the small one. After Sis placed our order, I spotted the regular Apam's stall a few yards away. I told Sis to cancel our order. Sis didn't dare so I had to tell the hawker myself. After we left, a boy (I think he's related to the hawker) jeered and make fun of me >:(
Hmph... I never buy their Apam Balik again >:(
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