Chinese New Year's Eve

Tonight the Chinese will get together to eat dinner. So, everyone is in a New Year mood right now but not me. There's just something I dislike about it. I dunno...maybe its the fact that every Chinese New Year something bad will happen to my family. I don't even look forward for the ang pows. Now that Sis is in KL, I have to brace myself for tomorrow in that house. Even though there gonna be a lot of visitors & cousins (...I barely talked to) coming, I just can't help but to feel distant T_T

Lol...